Hold on. Don't let go.

I was inspired this morning, during an early morning jog.
Found this song, quite by accident.
Burned thru some data then, but it's okay...she kept me moving.
And worshipping thru a run, well, now that's somethin'.   :))

One of my *new* faves.
Take a listen.





How is life going for you?

So busy, right?

I think that's why part of this song resonated with me.
Did you listen to the words?
It's perfect for my world right now.
I typed the words out...


[I know it's all you got to just be strong.
And it's a fight just to keep it together. together.
I know you think that you are too far gone.
But HOPE is NEVER lost.
But HOPE is NEVER lost.

HOLD on. DON'T let go.
HOLD on. DON'T let go.
Just take one step closer.
Put one foot in front of the other.
You'll get thru this.
Just follow the light in the darkness.
You're gonna be okay...

I know your heart is heavy from those nights.
But just remember that you ARE a fighter.
A fighter.
You never know just what tomorrow holds.
And you're stronger than you know.
Stronger then you know.

Hold on, Don't let go.
Hold on, Don't let go.
Just take one step closer.
Put one foot in front of the other.
You'll get thru this.
Just follow the light in the darkness.
One step closer
Put one foot in front of the other.
You'll get thru this,
Just follow the light in the darkness.
You're gonna be okay.

And when the night is closing in.
Don't give up and don't give in.
This won't last. It's not the end. It's not the end.
You're gonna be okay.
And when the night is closing in.
Don't give up and don't give in.
This won't last. It's not the end. It's not the end.
You're gonna be okay.]



I can get so easily overwhelmed.
All these thoughts swirling around in my head.

My grieving heart, as one more Christian family removes their children from our public school system.
We needed them. I needed them to stand in the gap with me. I am believing my children are going to survive in this world, and they are going to make a difference where they are at, and they are going to have a relationship with Jesus. He is going to save them. Am I sacrificing my children in this fallen world by sending them to our public school? Am I?

***And please...I am just thinking outloud. I know education is a very personal decision, and high calling. Each family makes the decision that is right for them. I am not looking to offend anyone, and am not looking for critical comments to be left for me...I am speaking of Matt and I's calling to our public school system, and voicing some of my frustrations...that is all. Thanks.***

My wondering soul...our quick fix society. I feel like more people are medicated now then ever before. Why? Why are we not able to cope with our feelings and emotions in healthy ways? I broke down during family vacation the other week, and sobbed. I was feeling overwhelmed with my circumstances...Do we as a society know that it is okay to grieve. It's okay to feel sad and angry sometimes? Sometimes I feel like we think life should always be happy...

***And please...again...I am not looking to offend anyone. I am voicing my real life, real time thoughts. I know there is a place for medication. A very needed place. I believe medication can be a real life line and necessity to survive and function well...please do not become upset with my words if you need medication. You are not who I am speaking too...***

I am taking big strides this coming school year, in my mama world.
My baby is going to kindergarten.
Four of my five children are entering new school buildings.
Another year filled with hope and anticipation. Excitement and disappointment.
Lord, help me be the mother my children need.
And our summer. Help us have a good one. :)

I ponder over to a recent conversation I had with my sister.
We parent very differently. Partly out of belief, and partly out of necessity.
(Summertime living on a busy farm with 5 children, is very different then her having her summer "off" with her 3 kids...as she is a teacher.)
She will never agree with me, nor I with her.
And that's okay. We love as we can.

And this teen parenting thing.
Ready or not...it is here. :)))
{Hold on. Don't let go.
Just take one step closer.
Put one foot in front of the other,
and we'll get thru this.
Follow the light thru the darkness.}

And who am i kidding. Maybe there won't be any darkness in the teen years?
Can always hope, right? :))

Well. Those are my thoughts for now.

-love-

Poor Karolina. Age 5. Napping during one of Kaden's baseball games.

And THESE are my people.
Daddy. Mommy. Kaden- 13, Kaycee-12, Campbell-10, Calli-8 and Karolina-5.

Karolina's drawing. Age 5. Her attention to detail and design. ;)

P.S. Have a good morning. You are loved.