Party like a princess...

So times are a changing here in the King household. Almost 2 teens live here, and soon to be a bunch of pre-teens to follow. :) Trying to...

Monday, October 18, 2010

coming. up. for. air.

i am trying to come up for air.
i really am.
i just feel like i am still sinking. that's all.

have you ever felt like you are doing too much?
and because you are doing so much, you can't do anything right?
i don't know if i mean right.
i mean you are just getting by.
nothing you do is great.
it's just okay...because you have so much to do,
it all can't get your "best".

part of that is life, i know.
but the other part is me.
and the other part of that is my perfectionistic side...i know that too.

i feel like because i am a stay at home mom that people think i don't do anything. {don't get too alarmed, i know this isn't totally true...
it's just how i feel sometimes...} 
that i have all the time in the world.
and part of that is true. i do have a lot more time~to start with~
than say a mom who works outside of the home.

so...because of this, people just keep asking me to do things.
and. i do it. all.
and now...i feel like i am running as hard as all the moms who work full time outside of the home.
i mean it.
i really am spinning circles here.

the sad and honest thing about it's no one's fault but my own.
for me.

i am once again trying to sort out the difference in me being
"called" to do something, versus "wanting" too, versus "needing" too.
and i love to serve.
i *really* love to serve.
part of my calling as a woman of serving.
i know that.
but then why am i getting so tired?

it's so hard for me to know where to draw the line.
and how do you say no anyway?

all that to say...
Good News Club is coming to Octorara Primary Learning Center.
i am very, very excited.
this has been on my heart for a very long time, and it's finally coming to fruition.
and that feels good. really, really good.

we feel called to the public school system.
we do.
that's all.
and we want to make a difference.
we want people to know us.
to know our kids.
to see Jesus in us. thru us. on us.

we all mess up.
i do. matt does. our kids do.
and i expect we are going to continue to really mess up.
like in really B*I*G ways...
that's okay.
who doesn't anyway?

our first club is monday...the 25th...
from 3:30 pm until 5 pm.
you can pray for me, and all my helpers.
for the kids who will come.
for a fun. fun. time.

~i am completely weeded from a bunch of training that being involved
with this club means. pray that this club would be a fun get-away
for kids who need one. that they could see Jesus here. that God
will work in a mighty way in the hearts and minds of our kids...
that i wouldn't be stressed about the club looking or running
a certain way...~

i am off to work on my Beth Moore bible study.
because. i. am. behind. i mean WAY behind.
thanks for listening. and maybe even relating.

and p.s.   KNOW that i am passionate about the things that i do.
i think they are all important.
YOU are all important.
my life is fun.
most of the time. :)
i just need some help that spelled right?
what i should be doing,
and what i should LET someone else do...


Kendra said...

my kids are so excited! wish I didn't work mondays so I could help! and believe me, you probably do more work than I do and I do work outside the home!

Sarah said...

Hey Mis! Praying for you as you start the good news club..YAY! And praying as you try to catch your breath. You are always offering to help others (and often asked to help)..can I help you? I could keep your kids for a few hours if you just need a break to get things done or if just need a NAP to refresh! I'm SERIOUS!!!

Anonymous said...

Missy...Wow did you get inside my head!?! Shew I struggle with always saying Yes to everything also..some months I look at our calender and wonder HOW am I going to get through it :) Praying for you and this new venture of yours!! Hopfully we will get to see you at the up coming Wedding!! Take Care!

Rita Zehr

Anonymous said...

wow and yeah.....welcome to motherhood, homemaking, wifing (is that even a word?), serving and the like. i told your parents and mine that i think the highlight of the weekend was serving them a yummy meal on saturday night but was i just as perky when i got a call monday that noah hurled in his classroom?.....and then again on MY carpet?.....and then when EZRA threw-up in my flowerbed? a big no way! Grace for the Race Momma!